April 2009
More on Greece

Writing this has been on my agenda for a few days, but after arriving home in Paris, then seeing my room mate off to Berlin, I have had a rather unproductive batch of activity, colored by a mild cold (which seems to have been Greece's parting gift).  At any rate, here come some tidbits about the trip, bullet-style.

Church bells, Oia
Passage, Oia
Waiting to board the ferry
Lunch, Oia
Jean-ha on Perissa Beach
Stelio's Place, hostel, Perissa Beach
At the Acropolis

On Greece

The strange thing about traveling, these days, is the sense of having manifested something.  When I was younger it was more about the act of departure and arrival -- the sense of moving away from people and coming back, the age-old idea of a trip that changes you, even if it is just for a weekend.  While much of that still stands, it feels different.  No longer do tray tables inspire scrawled journal entries about how exciting it feels to be in transit, to know the sensation of geographic movement.  Now I mostly try to sleep, I get knots in my back, and I try not to drool in public.  The taste of once-frozen dinner rolls and mid-morning vegetable spread isn't much condolence. 

I think maybe the romance surrounding air travel died on a flight from Atlanta to Seoul, when I spent four of sixteen hours in the airplane bathroom, throwing up and trying to stay conscious.  I have worked hard to train myself into napping uncontrollably, if only to avoid thinking too hard about my digestive tract and all the things I have put it through in life.  The romance of being in transit has completely fallen away; transit is hardly time to reflect on the places one has seen, or time to ponder where one is going.  Rather, it is a miserable experience one must endure between bursts of life.  Here are hours not wasted, but folded somewhere into time.  Though geographic movement seems to take forever while it is experienced, once you have arrived it seems quite sudden.  Suddenly you are home.  Suddenly it is tomorrow.  Suddenly it occurs to you how terrible you smell, how long you have been awake, that you have been on your computer for six hours, and that, for the second time in a day, the only meal you can assemble is farfalle with butter and a glass of apple juice.  It would behoove me to remember to stock a little something in the freezer for Sunday arrivals, when all grocery stores and markets in France are closed.

The strangeness and the delight, as I said, concern the manifestation of a trip -- to plan from start to finish, to assemble tickets, to gather information.  Even choosing destinations can inspire disbelief.  One moment there is a voice in your computer, and a few years later you are visiting a friend in Bosnia.  One evening you see a photograph and decide you must experience its subject directly.  One month you are collecting signatures on campus, then suddenly you are alone in an airport, about to move to a foreign country for a year.  Each journey can be traced by its own string of events, but as you experience them they can feel quite disconnected.  It is hard for me to convey how many times I have stood before monuments or looked out on a view and had an experience that abruptly changes from witnessing the site to an awareness that I really am there, that I decided to do something that seemed impossible and accomplished it.  Sometimes it feels almost by accident.  So often while traveling you are too overwhelmed for clarity, but every now and then a moment hits you and you realize you are standing in the spot you imagined you'd never reach, or that you'd only be able to visit thirty years down the road.  It's freeing.  Anything seems possible when, even if only for an instant, you feel you've controlled the course of your own life.

When trying to capture this sensation, I often return to this video, which ends with, "The end goal of this project, both in its vlog and documentary form is to share people's reasons and motivations behind their trip.  Most importantly, to share what makes or drives a person to leave everything behind: their routines, their friends, the things that are comfortable to us and give us a false sense of security.  There's an infinite number of stories and paths chosen that lead to leaving it all behind.  But even more important than sharing these stories is doing so in a way that helps break down the myths and false fears that people put up.  Because, in the end, it has almost nothing to do with the bike and everything to do with setting out to accomplish something that is intimidating, that is unknown to you -- something you know you have a good chance of failing at, but doing it anyway, and slowly but surely, proving yourself wrong."

Oia, Santorini

Parisian photo adventures

My days in Paris are numbered, and so, it seems, my camera finds itself out and about more frequently.  Here are some recent highlights.

The boys, Pompidou
Philip, Drew, and Daniel on the escalators of the Pompidou.

Drew and the Eiffel Tower
Drew on a pedestrian bridge.

Playing at the photo booth
Drew retrieving some photos from the old school photo booth at Palais de Tokyo.

Sitting along the Seine
Sunset on the banks of the Seine.

On the quai
Philip, Daniel, and I at sunset on the quai.

Stephanie, Philip, and Jean-ha
Kite flying (well, sort of) at the Parc des Buttes Chaumont.

Philip's haircut
Me, giving Philip a hair cut in my apartment.

Fotoautomat, Palais de Tokyo, 21 March 2009
From the old school photo booth at Palais de Tokyo, when Logan was here during his spring break.

As always, there are a variety of photo adventures over at the flickr stream.

My life, the future, and everything

A few of you have submitted your votes (it's a good system, don't you think?  Let's me know what you think is interesting, and gives me a jumping-off point and a greater sense of purpose), so today's program will include an exploration of the landscape of my life as it has been shaping up recently.  I expect by the time I finish, it will have been a long and winding hike through the mountains, but perhaps we'll find a view of the horizon and someone can claim they see what's coming up ahead.  That person will probably not be me.

With every month that passes, I toss around phrases like, "It's hard to believe there are only ____ months left in Paris," if only to remind myself that this magical year will come to a close, and that Paris will not, in fact, remain my daily backdrop.  Today there remain less than two months, and before long the countdown will be in days.  Already I am putting off things like getting a haircut or seeing a film -- things that will be cheaper to do in America.

I have a lot to go back to, so it's not as if I'm dreading my return.  But it's hard to fathom what it will mean to leave Paris, and hard to convey to others even a fraction of what I think it will feel like.  I suppose the closest I can come with people my age is this: remember your freshman year of college?  Your new friends, your new lifestyle, the parties, the road trips, the late nights, the sense of community.  Imagine as a freshman on the eve of exams, you knew you'd go back to complete another year of high school in the fall.  It's hardly a sentence; there are classmates you'd love to see again, perhaps you miss your hometown, etc.  But there remains the fact that life has changed quite drastically, and returning to the same setting you found yourself in a year prior might feel a little strange.  Nevermind that they literally speak a different language, don't have delicious bakeries on every corner, and have considerably less museums to visit.

I keep thinking of a Czech proverb I learned recently, "Kolik jazyku znas, tolikrat jsi clovekem."  In English, it's something to the effect of "you live a new life for every new language you speak. If you know only one language, you live only once."  It's not as if Paris will vanish overnight -- a culture forever lost, a second Atlantis -- but access to French culture and language in Tuscaloosa, Alabama, can be a bit limited, even with the help of French clubs and tutoring jobs.  The little songs everyone sings to each other here cannot be exported; the cadence of my usual "merci, au revoir" at the bakery door won't be quite so beautiful and effective when I take my coffee and bagel from the disgruntled old woman at the café in the bottom floor of the university library.

As for questions about the future (to touch on the high school comparison once more), it's a bit like being a junior in high school and having people ask you where you'll be going to college before you've even taken the tests you'll need to apply.  So perhaps we'll start with something more immediate.  I've applied to a number of internships with museums and magazines, hoping to find some work in New York or D.C. for the summer.  Most of what I've applied for involves exhibit creation or research, film archiving/restoration, or art editorial work.  So far I have a rejection from National Geographic in D.C., and an interview with Harper's in New York.  With about fifteen applications submitted, I hope the net I cast is wide enough, but it's still a bit early to tell.  I'm still waiting to hear back from others like the Holocaust Museum, the Smithsonian's Postal Museum, the Notebaert Museum in Chicago, National Geographic Adventure, a book arts internship in Brooklyn, and a number of other small libraries and publications.  If I don't find anything I'll spend some time at my parents' and maybe return early to Tuscaloosa for summer school and work.

Other definites: a fall schedule that includes Intro to Linguistics, Printmaking, a seminar on ethnography and culture, Spanish 103, and a science credit I need to graduate.  After missing the dark room so fiercely this year, I regret that there's not room in my academic schedule to take photography, but I can still work as a dark room monitor.  Hopefully I'll have the time to create more work for my portfolio.

Which brings me to the Post Undergrad Question.  What will Glynnis do with her life?  I remain of the mentality that opportunities present themselves, and that one needs only to be willing, brave, and ready.  And that in the meantime one should work hard and stay busy doing things one loves.  This whole Paris for a year thing?  A crazy opportunity that presented itself via supportive parents, two generous scholarships, and an academic advisor who asked the question, "Only for the summer?  Why not go for the whole year?"  Oh yeah.  And there was a lot of paperwork.

So with the opportunity mentality in mind, there are a number of directions I'm considering.  I'm hoping one of them will suddenly become more appealing and plausible than the others, and soon.

  • Grad school.  This may be tricky, since for reasons relating to personal history and the U.S. health care system, it'd be best to consider going right after I graduate.  Which means tests and portfolios and a mess of applications in the near future, when I'm still not entirely positive what I'm most interested in or where I should apply.  Possibilities I'm considering: an MFA in photography (Parsons?), or an MFA in book arts/library sciences (programs around the country).  I've also considered linguistics but am not sure yet whether it's something I'm committed or qualified to study at the graduate level.
  • Re: a mess of portfolios, applications, and tests as soon as I get back to the States.  Graduating late.  Taking more time in undergrad to be sure of what I'd like to do when I finish.  The drawback: hanging around Tuscaloosa doesn't seem as appealing as some of the other options, and my scholarship runs out in the spring so it may be best to put the money toward moving forward rather than stalling.
  • France!  I can come back and continue studying, get certified to teach French, or teach English.  Or all three.  And school/health care here is cheap.
  • Entering the job market.  Work on magazines, in museums?  Teaching French?  Getting paid to be awesome and think about things?
So that's as much an update as I can give you concerning my life, the future, and everything, without degenerating into whines about how all of it will be more difficult and competitive with today's economy.  As more news rolls in and as the time inevitably passes, I'll try to keep the internet up to date on any new developments (beats repeating all this uncertainty ad nauseam via email, video chat, and phone calls).  But until then, I suppose it's best to enjoy all the questions of youth, eh?  The answers aren't always as important as we'd like to think they are.

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